Mourning Song

Hello Dear Reader
I am closing in on the final appeal for help with my book. If you didn’t read the post titled Brave (because it was a long one!), you can look for that post here on the blog and get the whole story on the story. But the jist of it is, I am asking anyone and everyone who reads my blog and who finds my message a worthy cause, to pre-order a copy of a book I am writing for $25 by sending to PO Box 304 Frankfort, MI 49635. Please include your name, address, phone number, email and how many books you would like to order, or, if you would like, email me privately for some of the incentives I am offering for larger donations, like original artwork, copies donated in your name, your name in the acknowledgements of the book or a reading for you and a group of people. The book will comprise some original paintings, poetry, new insights not available on the blog, and will otherwise be a book about my experience of loss and of searching for hope & healing in the midst of my beautiful boy’s tragic choice to end his life. THANK YOU for your support and encouragement of my words, however you receive them, here &/or by pre-ordering my book.
Today, I share one poem.
Mourning Song
by christina ryan-stoltz
Baby bird
Tell me why
Your song fills me with sorrow
Not because
I dont already know
Or cannot understand
Just remind me how the song started
Soft and sweet
With hope on your wings
Make your home in my silvering hair
Stay with me here
In all seasons
I will listen
I will sing along
And when the time comes
I will carry your tune
long after you
Leave the nest…
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Published by: christinaryanstoltz

I write to touch the supple center of unguarded ache~ To release myself from the pressure of not knowing how to move forward from the unfathomable loss of my beloved son, my beautiful boy Isaac, to suicide, of not knowing how to release my grip on of the past, both the worshipping of it as well as the beating myself up for it, and letting go of the need to know what I could’ve done or what on earth I will do now. I write to heal.

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  1. Dear Friend, I hope to drop off a check soon! It has been awhile since I have reached out. Know that you are accompanied, even though it isn’t always acknowledged. Each post reopens a vulnerability in me that is trying so hard to close up in order to face ’the world’. I am trying to remain open, more present and loving in tribute to sweet Isaac. Your last post reminded me of something Doctor Hawkins and AA says about having a ‘decent regret’ . I see your victory over shame as your highest service to others, a continuation of Isaac’s work here. Together. Love you! Sharron >> >>


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